Where are you going

Where are you going?

Where are you going, my little one, my little one.

Where are you going, my baby, my own?

Turn around and you’re two.

Turn around and you’re four,

Turn around and you’re a young girl going out of my door.

Turn around, turn around,

Turn around, and you’re a young girl going out of my door. 

The day after you take one of your daughters to college and your mind continues to loop the thought,  ‘How did this happen so fast?’ The silly imagination and clothing choices that may have been a bit fashion forward had been molded and shaped into a grown up version of a vibrant and earnest girl. I just turned around, just for a brief moment…

Turn around and you’re tiny

Turn around and you’re grown

Today she still exudes that same childlike quality. Her love and passion for all things are undergirded with wisdom and grace, and bit more life experience. There is so much more to learn in the journey that lies ahead. When I turn around, my days are richer, saturated with moments that are beyond that which I could have ever imagined when I first held her in my arms so many years ago.

There is one more, one more girl to watch and remember as the moments gather in my mind as I sing, Where are you going, my little one, my little one…

Turn Around by Malvina Reynolds

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Write It Down!

You remember to write it down. You even look at the list in the morning because you remember writing it down last night. That look comes over your face, a sort of cringe, your brow furrows just a bit.

That has been my routine for quite a while. Intentions are just that, intentions.

There have been two things on my perpetual list: continue my work of documenting aging and dementia through art and blogging. The first began while I was a student at Rollins College. My digital photography course required a semester-long project culminating with a peer review of our work. Throughout the semester, we were also required to blog about our ongoing work. Well, the end of the semester came, as did my time to graduate. Silence.

Through much encouragement from my own family, I am picking up the torch (a.k.a. camera) and getting back into the driver’s seat or saddle (whichever applies to you) and moving forward with my art and this blog. The image above is one of the triptychs from my final project.

Until next time…

Final Project, First Images: Images of Aging

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Creating images that reflect a life experience so close to your heart can be difficult. Aging and dementia are part of the daily thoughts that run through my head. I, at least, am able to verbalize those thoughts. The images I have posted today communicate a story, a life, which is no longer able to tell his or her story.

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The images are simple and capture the eyes of a loved one. They say you can see much through ones eyes; pain, sadness, anger, love. I hope to tell the audience the untold story that may not be spoken, but is told through the eyes. As I continue with this project, I hope to expand the story beyond the eyes of the one affected and incorporate a broader view of the topic.

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A New Semester!

Carefully, I scheduled my last semester to use both sides of my brain. Weird, I know. But, I strategically wanted to have a few creative courses along with a few research courses. After my first week of classes, I am please to say that my stress level has drastically decreased compared to my fall semester.

Below I have posted a video of an installation that my friend Eric has installed at the Magnan Metz Gallery in New York City. Eric holds an MFA from Montclair State University.

An installation using a technique I’ve developed called “projection negation,” in which painted and digitally projected colors optically blend and negate each other until the viewer obstructs the projector, revealing the painting underneath.

The Influence of Music

After sitting through another class on Music in Film, the first thought that came to me was just how fortunate I was to have a class that focuses on music and its importance in film and that I get to watch clips of great films. My second thought was the creative minds that collaborate to paint texture, color, and timbre into a visual piece of art through music are powerful. The emotions triggered through a single instrument captivate me. I have always felt the impending doom in a film when I hear the low brass or strings dominate the scene and the camera pan out to what will be an unexpected entrance of something evil. Most may not recognize it immediately, but the goose bumps on their arms says something completely different.

This is the power of music. John Williams and Howard Shore know this all too well. Their film scores include Star Wars, Schindler’s List, Lord of the Rings, and Harry Potter, just to name a few. Try watching any of these films with the sounds muted and you will quickly realize the importance of the music and the mood and emotion it creates. The influence of music goes beyond our imagination, captivating and evoking a response that will change us and our culture.

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A New Role for a New/Old Student

The reality is, I am much older than my classmates. In fact, some may say someone’s mother came to class today; the truth is – she did. My journey has led me to return to college after a thirty-year hiatus. After completed my Associate in Arts degree, I applied to a few colleges, one of them being Rollins College. Rollins offered me the opportunity to design a degree within a liberal arts curriculum that would give me the platform to do what I have been doing previously – promote the arts.

Promoting the arts has been my passion since my involvement at a young age. Life has given me the occasions to experience the arts as a participant, volunteer, and supporter.  Rollins is now giving me the tools to further my endeavors through its classes, professors, and community.

My first encounter with a professor was to inquire about the self-design degree. Dr. John Sinclair, head of the Music Department, agreed to speak with me about my plans for the proposed degree.  We meet in the summer before the semester even began and he listened to the story of my journey and how I came to Rollins. His assistant sat in on the meeting and shared her personal experience at Rollins as a non-traditional student.  Our conversation included the pros and cons of designing a degree, working through the process; engaging professors to work with me on my proposal, and potential senior projects that are a requirement for the degree. As I listened to their advice, I became excited about my time ahead at Rollins and what I have to look forward to in my journey. Their encouragement throughout the discussion showed me that my time at Rollins would not be a solo flight, but an expedition complete with a navigation team to help guide me.

After meeting with Dr. Sinclair, I took a look at the notes I had written during our time together and began to formulate a plan for designing and completing my degree. I made a list of the departments I was interested in and the people I would need to connect with about my proposed degree. As I began to communicate with professors from the various departments, it was obvious they wanted to hear my ideas and help in any way they could. Their experience and advice were delivered with the intention of equipping a student with the tools not only for the immediate gratification but also for success in a career and life.

My proposal is still being written and I continue to seek advice during my time at Rollins and for the future. Guidance has continued through a variety of professors, some through their coursework and others outside of the classroom. My goal is to secure approval for my self-designed degree and complete it in the two years I have remaining at Rollins. I would like to be thought of as a student who desires excellence in all things. This will be an attainable goal for a mom studying at an excellent school.